I can’t get over my childhood of what I was going through
I really wish I had learned better social skills before I got this old, its always embarassing when people find out I have no friends. It also makes me feel like I'm way too immature to ever catch up with what I should be like at this age
I’m starting to feel like now I can’t like my Spectrum stop me from what I want to do in my life.
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I did not know until I started college that there was something different about me. Growing up in a Hispanic household, anything involving the brain was considered taboo. Psychological disorders such as depression, social anxiety, bipolar disorder etc was (and still is)seen as a sign of weakness that brings disgrace in the family.
Hi I’m new here. I’ve recently started my journey on getting clarity and validation for evident autistic behaviours I have had all my life. However it is conflicting and hard to navigate alone, especially studying and working full time. I feel too clumsy and incapable of basic things and so alone in wanting to exceed my expectations but always letting myself and others down. Has anyone ever felt similarly and overcome this discouraging slump?
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Hi! i have only recently been diagnosed with autism and i have a question. sometimes, when my mum is talking to me, i feel as if im having a meltdown and as if i need to cover my ears and drown out the sound. i also find that i can’t have my mum sit too close to me but with anyone else i am fine. are these normal (ish) traits for an autistic person to have or am i being a horrible daughter?
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I had these wore out slippers and my neighbor run over my slippers and she parked her car and my slippers were under her tires
Made me happy
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I am currently trying to get a diagnoses, and I feel split between wanting an answer and being scared of the answer. I read on how autism can show in women and I really feel a connection to the articles. I am uncertain if I can afford a diagnoses tho. Any advice on how I should feel in the meantime? I know self diagnosing is bad
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At times I feel like I am a burden and that I can’t be trusted the fact I am always silent. People don’t realize that silence is maturity. I feel like everything is my fault.
I don’t understand why my parents hate me so much! My 9 year old brother turned 9 today and he asked when he is able to get his learners and I said you shouldn’t be able to get your license when your 18 as I’m 21 and I haven’t gotten my license as yet I hope to get it this year though as my parents honestly don’t bother taking me to get my hours much up at all and make me rely on lessons to get it up and then they made him sound like he’s going to live this successful life and get a job at 14.5 years old and get all these great things and saying all that because I didnt have a job then and I didn’t have a resume then either or knew how to write one or a cover letter. And I got so upset and they went off at me for being jealous and making it all about myself when it’s hard not to not that I wouldn’t be happy for my brother having a great life and all but it just feels they look at him as if he’s on top of this massive pedestal and I’m way down below it covered and topped off in shit. I tried telling them that and because I went off at my brother because I’m upset by it I got called a jealous spiteful bitch and it’s hard not to be as I want to live a successful life to my liking and they know that so that’s their way of getting to me and mum kept saying all this mean shit like go sook to your partner he’s the only one that’ll listen to your shit no one else will and he will tell his parents how awful we are to you and his mum will have instant alarm belles of why your always upset and start worrying about the type of woman his son is with. And because I kept going off as my parents wouldn’t stop attacking me with mean shit my dad said he’d call the police and get a special ambulance for the mental in and get me took to an asylum because I’m insane I was going insane with the mean shit including that that they kept saying to me and I felt awful I’m now trying hard to soon get a job and have been in touch with a job agency which ha been really hard for me as I’ve been out of work for 4 years now due to the last time I worked and the awful experience I had at the time and to get teased and treated like shit from that experience at the time now it is really damaging and heart breaking that it keeps going on like that I just feel like my parents truly hate me and hated me since my little brother was born as they never spoke to me like that till he was born
Suggestions? Advice? - Exhausted to find words to talk, Kirsten even to talk is draining.. - Struggle to communicate emotion - tinnitus turned up.... - don’t write - struggle to find the right words - reading is even a challenge as my 👀 eyes don’t always work the best (focus issues).. Yet sometimes I feel like I am screaming on the inside...
So I want help with my ex’s mum and I’s relationship/friendship. So I spoke to her last year sent a message basically saying how awful I felt putting her son through all the stress and causing him to be depressed when my anxiety and depression started sparking 5 years ago this year and explaining why I didn’t trust him with other female’s as he emotionally cheated on me in the relationship we had and that is also why I was a right bitch to him because I just couldn’t believe someone I loved would do that thinking he was so much better then the person he was and after I sent that message to his mum we chattered for a bit every now and then once a week up until about November then it stopped then I messaged her in January to see if she could pray for my cousin and uncle with some bad family crisis’s and she was all good with that and I just basically asked every now and then a bit after that how she was and then last month she read a message and ignored it and did the same this week when I massaged her asking how she was so I’m confused I said to her when we had started chatting a bit after sending the apology message that if she wants me to back off just say that it’s making her uncomfortable and I’ll back off I can take a message but she hasn’t said anything I don’t know if it’s that and she doesn’t want to seem rude or if I’ve done something
That’s why at this point I don’t want to be close with my parents anymore due to my behavior and the fact that I function differently..
What’s up all, I just found out that my almost 2 year old daughter has autism. Her mother and I aren’t on speaking terms but I want to be there for my baby girl.
I feel like everything is my fault due to what I was going through
Anyone here with a late diagnoses due to your cultural/ethnic background and beliefs?
Hey guys I’m stressed outta my brain and I’m wanting to fix the issue with my family and i that happened yesterday but they won’t let me talk or hear what I’ve got to say instead the yell at me and tell me they want nothing to do with me which breaks my heart as I love my family so much and what happened was we were going out and because whenever my dad is home he always goes to the same old places all the time and I don’t like where we all usually have lunch when he’s home so I was trying to see if he’d either stop at the side so I could grab Maccas or stop at a hotel near where we usually have lunch and he wouldn’t negotiate or was happy to do either as it always has to be about him and what he wants to do he’s the most self centred person I know so that started an argument and we had an argument earlier on that day and he told mum about it then involved her in it as when dad and I were arguing she threw her bits in and she doesn’t stop when she starts and she goes far too far telling me to go stay where my partner is in a different state to us get a one way fare there and not to come back as they’re over me and it’s always me I’m apparently the trouble causer and I make them yell and swear at me and mum was egging me on to lose it as she knows what to say to get me to that point and I hate it and she kept saying yeah go on hit me and then we’ll get you removed and you will be taken away and it’ll be on your record dad stopped around the corner tried dragging me outta the car and he stopped as I was yelling and there were houses near by he ended up driving back home hoping to drop me back at home or he was going to the police station and hoping to get me charged and arrested I did end up hitting Mum twice but barely got her as I really didn’t want to that part to is usually outta my control it just happens I don’t have time to think about it and she knows that which isn’t fair and it’s like she was hoping I was going to do that so then they could get rid of me I’m trying to fix things between us all and they keep blaming me for all of it and they aren’t taking any accountability for any of it I said yes I did this this and this and I’m sorry for it and they go off at me for whenever I apologise but they don’t bother apologising for anything or taking any of the blame
So I ended up getting dropped home at the end and staying here I don’t know what to do I’m panicking I hate feeling this way especially because I love my family so much
How do you guys deal with burnout? I worked on my application like hell last week. My mind seem to have shut off! #MartyrdomStruggles
Everybody hates me no one wants to hang out me
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The only thing that hurts me so much is how autistic people are treated in society. The fact that I have to keep that pain and burden inside, you can’t trust cops anymore or anyone else especially the fact they’re disabled. I see it on the news and it hurts so much.
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Ay anyone here feel like a bump on a log but then rised up because of your disability?
Have a beautiful day everyone. Reminder that not everyone sees the beauty this world has to offer. That doesn’t mean it isn’t beautiful. You all make this world wonderful and you are welcomed with open arms. Be kind to yourselves, there’s already enough unkindness in our lives. Stay loved, stay blessed because self love is a big component. You are precious and have so much to teach this world.
Hve people ever questioned or even showed ridicule over your 'autistic behavior(s)'?