Went through his socials last week and couldn’t stop comparing myself to all the models he follows. I look nothing like them and feel like I was never enough. All of them have completely opposite body type than me also. Thinking of changing my body so I feel better about myself.
Comparison can be so brutal. I once saw a quote that said something along the lines of, we can see the beauty in a flower, we can see the beauty in a rainbow, but the flower never wishes it was the rainbow. He's with you because he wants to be with YOU. He may see beauty elsewhere too, but that doesn't make you any less beautiful as a person. 💜🌸🌈
He stopped texting me and didn’t even give me his Instagram I had to find it and he was following a bunch of girls who have a body nothing like mine.
I’m leaving him
But that whole experience really humbled me ig. It also made me feel like I was never enough and idk how he could have loved me.
I'm sorry I misunderstood! I'm more sorry that situation made you not enough. That's the thing though, how he treated you is a reflection of him, not you. That was something that took me a long time to learn. If we constantly place our worth in others hands, it will go up and down on the whim of another. We all do it to a greater or lesser extent. But I really believe our worth comes from internal validation. How we feel about ourselves. In different cultures and societies, what's beautiful and good changes. That's how I know what matters is what I think about myself. Sending you lots of love and light 💜
It took me a really long time to build up confidence in my body and eventually it just broke down again and now I want to change it for good