Have barely slept n been up since 6a drinking to numb the pain. I don’t know what to do but all I feel is pain
Please tell me about your pain.
I pushed away a close friend of mine due to my own mental illness, unfortunately it caused them to have their own psychotic break & I needed to call the police to do a wellness check on them bcuz they were su*c*dal. I feel absolutely guilty since they needed me & I wasn’t able to help them bcuz off my own problems. My last words to them were “I didn’t care if they died & I hate them.” I haven’t forgiven myself since.
I’ve done that.