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Tropical Fish
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16 Feb
I have 2 months sober. I'm struggling not to relapse when my anxiety is so high. I keep trying to find a way to calm down but I can't. My stress is just so high and I can't seem to soothe myself.
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frisbee
25 Feb
I had a dream that I smoked weed and ruined my chance at this new job because I would have failed the drug test. Luckily it was just a dream 😰
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Tennis
Coach
25 Feb
Hello friends! We are live with Carolyn Swenson discussing life style changes to drugs and alcohol use. join us. https://us06web.zoom.us/j/5575776590.
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Full Moon
26 Feb
Lot of love and courage to everyone of you here x
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Evergreen Tree
27 Feb
I went on a 2 week long binder of using pain pills. Whell i ran out last night and im feeling it today. I cant stop crying i really need some support
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Hibiscus
27 Feb
I feel so stupid. Some days I think about when I use to drink and use and I couldn’t control my emotions. These days I haven’t been drinking. Smoking weed, doing lines, in the hospital because I’m too high. I’m suppressing my emotions because I can’t cry. Don’t want to cry. I feel alone. I am alone.
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Octopus
28 Feb
I can't go to certain meetings because certain people make me anxious.
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Panda
25 Mar
Hi! Nice to meet everyone here
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frisbee
26 Mar
Its 12:00 pm now, if I can get through the rest of today and tomorrow without drinking then I can start my new job with 3 days of sobriety. And from there I can stay busy enough that sobriety will be alot easier. 🤞 this felt like it would never happen but here I am finally 😮
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Owl
27 Mar
I am struggling with my thoughts and trying to stay sober
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Lion
Guide
27 Mar
Hey Anna
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Full Moon
2 Apr
Great result. After having successfully kept away cocaine for 4 months - with the last time being “ under control” meaning with friends, not alone, meaning nothing over the top, not buying it myself and happily able to stop way before sunrise, After more than 1 year with non of these ugly episodes here I am: - Alone at 7:30 am, completely slave of it. There is no other way to descrive it. I thought I could sleep, but I did ordered for myself earlier, around 1.30 am, thinking to have a couple of drinks at the phone - and now you know the drill: not finished, not done. Have weekends plans, will I be able to do them once this shit is finished, probably aroubd at noon? I know very well my dopamine levels will crash under my feet. Why do I keep protecting myself from reality? Why is it so hard to motivate myself? Therapy is not working, been more than a year, maybe the guy is too old, maybe I am too old, maybe my coping mechanisms are are too well trained. This was a mistake, I am gonna learn from it - do never buy by your own alone!!! The rule should be never buy in general so how could I fall into such a stupid error?!? It’s a nasty, expensive, useless substance that toss your humanity away, I am now literally depending on that small bag. There is nothing left of me other than my late regret and ridiculous wining. Thank you for letting me use this platform as a journal. I hope it helps anyone who is craving their own poison: NOT worth it, you definitely gonna regret it. Much love and courage to everyone
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Tennis
Coach
5 Apr
One of the best ways to cope with substance use is to develop positive habits. Up today in Life Hacks we will discuss how to make habits attractive & easy to perform! Super excited to see you all there. Class starts at 2:00 PM EST, 1:00 PM CST, 12:00 PM MST, 11:00 AM PST. Click the zoom link https://us02web.zoom.us/j/83714542039
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Panda
9 Apr
Greetings✨! I just joined this community - don’t be a stranger! I’ve been clean for a month! Yay!!
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Lion
Helper
14 Apr
Hi. I've been using opiates for such a long time. I was clean for few weeks, in last week I overdosed medication cuz I wanted to be dead but my therapist and psychiatrist don't know about that. Today I quit therapy, and I don't think it was a good idea to make it. I really don't know what to do, I really don't know what I want and how I should live. I quit it cuz my family pushed me to make it, I really don't know what to do is there someone to talk?
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Maple Leaf
14 Apr
Was 1 week sober but until last night when fiancé was taking tequila shots while watching basketball and I couldn’t help but join. Why. Feel awful today
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Mushroom
21 Apr
Anyone want to chat
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Evergreen Tree
25 Apr
Is anyone around
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Octopus
3 May
Has anyone been on or taking Suboxone. I’ve been taking it for a little over 2 years, illegally of course. Friend was on it, didn’t need all be bad and me being always depressed, this actually helped. Even though I realize it was only masking my feelings. But now when I try to stop I get the bad withdrawal symptoms and it hurts so bad that I go back. I really wanna get off it but can’t figure out the best way. Tapering off but idk how. I’ve gone a few days between each dose I take and I’ve started cutting it in half and even quarters but when I hit day 4/5 I start getting ansi and agitated. Can’t sit still. Worst part is the restless legs and no sleeping. I think a lot of times I get into my own head and freak myself out but if anyone has any tips regardless of what you took. Anything to help me get through the pain. Please let me know. I really wanna stop and I can’t afford and honestly don’t wanna go to a recovery clinic or place. Thanks.
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Octopus
3 May
I’m struggling to figure out my addiction problem. I know I wanna stop. I don’t have anyone to talk to and have been scared to tell my folks. Did anyone tell their family? Was it easy? Did it make going through withdraws or anything easier with them knowing and around?
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Guitar
4 May
Back to my old ways . My life is such a joke I wish I could just leave this life. I feel like such an embarrassment
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frisbee
10 May
I'm working on getting into detox this week. I am scared but finally feel a little bit of hope for the first time in over 6 months. All I have to do is convince my boss to give me 4 days off and not get fired over it. Thats the part that scares me. I'm terrified of asking for time off.
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Tropical Fish
14 May
Hello everyone! My name is Rebelkat and I’ve struggled with substance use since I was a teenager. I go through good periods and bad periods, but it’s always an underlying issue. I’m hoping to make some friends here I can have honest conversations with about ways to be happy and sober. Or at least, more sober.
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Dolphin
Helper
24 May
Hi! Nice to meet everyone here
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Trumpet
25 May
Hello everyone! I’m excited to be here and to get to know you all💜
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Popcorn
28 May
It's hard to not go get drunk every day. It's hard to not go find the dealer when it's late at night and cannot sleep. 😢 I'm struggling
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Popcorn
Helper
29 May
Hi everyone. I am going through a very difficult time as l have a long history of codependency. My loved one made excellent gains before COVID-19 hit. Now it is drinking sipping and puffing all day…and it is UGLY. I don’t mind a little weed or a little wine but booze at 10:00 am…not sticking around for this any longer. Me or the booze and he said booze. But the abusive things coming at me are so difficult. Plus l am scared…and well alone and staying somewhere else now. If anyone can relate please reach out. If you are struggling with your own addiction l am here for you as well. It isn’t easy. I have my own issues too and it is easier when it isn’t around.
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Evergreen Tree
7 Jun
I made some really bad decisions that led me to crashing to my and busting the windshield. I haven't told anyone what really happened. And I just need some guidance and support.
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Chestnut
12 Jun
Hello 👋🏼! I just joined this community, nice to meet everyone 🥰.
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Owl
23 Jun
Hello, I've just recently come to realize that I have an alcohol addiction as well. I knew in the past I was addicted to various drugs not was in denial of this. I've been clean from drugs since November/December 2021. I just got out of behavioral health inpatient. It didn't even occur to me that I'd go through withdrawals there. Less than two days later, I was absolutely miserable physically. They put me on medication to help with the symptoms. I'm sober as of 9 June 2022. I'm anxious right now due to going to a PHP and knowing they might not accept me. I'm also sad and overwhelmed with the loss of my daughter. I have yet to go to a meeting but I will soon. I'm just trying to process all of this.
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Evergreen Tree
24 Jun
I feel like complete shit.. my body hurts I'm freezing.. my stomach is cramping.... It's day 2 off Norco and Klonopin.
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Owl
2 Jul
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Bear
15 Jul
Hi all, wanted to let you know that there’s a new resource in the U.S. Just like 911 for criminal matters.. dialing 988 will be known as the national suicide hotline. When will it be accessible? On Saturday 7/16 the “988” number will be going live. This is the suicide hotline. 💜📞
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Full Moon
18 Jul
Hi everyone! I’ve just joined this community. Nice to meet everyone!
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Bear
20 Jul
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Evergreen Tree
20 Jul
I need some guidance... support.. comfort...anything...
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frisbee
20 Jul
Everyone, I have finally decided to quit drinking. I have tried a few times, and anytime I don’t drink I cannot sleep. Does anyone else deal with sever insomnia? I have trouble sleeping when I drink, but if I don’t I do not sleep at all. How long after stopping did you finally start getting back to normal sleep?
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frisbee
7 Aug
I have cut back on alcohol the last couple weeks and at this point I'm not having withdrawal symptoms anymore (sweating shaking) so I think today's the day its safe to quit entirely. I'm kind of nervous because I will have tons of spare time (4 days off a week) but im planning on cleaning and hitting the gym daily and also I found 3 weekly aa meetings in the nearest town I can go to. My life has shrunk down to work, gym, and sit on the couch downstairs drinking and watching movies. Pray for me that I can fix my life and make it worth living.
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Mango
11 Aug
Im nervous to say this but I’m a heroin / fentanyl addict, i bang it and all I can see is sore tracks on my arms I’ve been off and on multiple times, I’ve overdosed more times than I remember but I can’t seem to quit even tho I’ve had close friends die from fentanyl I’m 23 and I feel like I won’t lean my lesson till I’m 6 feet under … here goes nothing
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Canoe
13 Aug
Im starting to get back to addiction after doing a good job staying off stuff
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Popcorn
13 Aug
So…don’t know exactly where to post this, but will post on other forms…Anyways, I’ve been stressed out which has led back into my “alcoholism”…Like, I (believe because as a kid I was diagnosed with ADHD) believe I have ADHD, so that could play a factor, but I don’t know…wish there was a number I could call just to vent to someone about everyday stress…any help would be appreciated…thank you in advance? Lol
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Owl
14 Aug
I chickened out of a meeting last night because there were a lot of people. Went to dance. It is a healthy, drug free environment. That was good. My boyfriend was there. After dance, we walked around. I saw an ex dealer, someone my friend was trying to be set up with (lol), someone from another meeting from the other day - didn't look 100% there, and a shit ton of high and drunk people. 😥 I was with my bf and asked if we could walk up a block. We did. He ended up coming home with me because I was real triggered. Ugh.. forgot how hard this is.
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Duck
4 Sep
Hello
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Owl
10 Sep
Shit is fucking hard but so fucking glad to be 21 days clean today
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Mango
24 Sep
Hey guys - I’m new here & look forward to getting to know you all🥳
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Mango
24 Sep
Needing someone to talk to I have Noone
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Owl
25 Sep
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Sun
15 Oct
Hey, just posting this a wee vent but yeah I decided recently to stop abusing my body with substances and to start looking after myself. It’s only been 3 weeks and I’m feeling so much better mentally but mad how I realise how many friends that I have that still do. Which is fine of course, but some have questioned me stopping and asking if it’s what I want to do and they’re gutted that I won’t be on nights out etc that much anymore. But yeah I just feel it’s hard. Especially living in the UK and the music I like myself. Just feel like I’m surrounded by it and I’m not sure where I’m going with this, just wanted to vent it out.
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Drum
17 Oct
I need advice! I’ve come here before to seek help years ago when my other half relapsed and I went down the rabbit hole myself and was doing meth with him for almost 3 years. Got sober together and recently after it being just a few months shy of or 3 years of being sober he relapsed once again and my life has been a living hell. I myself feel like relapsing at some moments and other moments I feel like life would be better if I was dead. I don’t know what to do anymore, I don’t know where to turn! Can any of you help?
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Owl
17 Oct
I got into a car accident on Saturday. I just got back from urgent care due to the pain. They gave me robaxin. It's nerve wrecking because my addict mind got excited.. 😔
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Sled
2:16 AM
I been taking opiates for years, I guess I’m a functioning addict as nobody knows. I don’t know if I take drugs to stop being depressed or if i’m depressed because I take drugs. I don’t have the best of health anyway so I spend a lot of my days on my own which only makes everything worse. To make things worse I do actually get genuine pain issues because of my health and to be quite honest at times I’d rather be an addict because the pain is unbearable. The doc has tried other pain treatments but it often seems the options are depressed and in pain or taking drugs. Tbh, I feel so down when im not using, I don’t even really want to stop. I guess I’m a functioning depressive too? I have a family though and need to get a grip before it’s too late. I don’t really have anyone to speak to about this so I guess my stopping cold Turkey is the only option. It’s been 2 days and i’m in pain, can’t sleep, have the shivers. Can’t remember when I last felt so unwell and I’ve been unwell a lot. I don’t know why i’m writing this but I don’t really know what else to do.
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