I really hate working ive hated every job ive ever had but whenever I don't have a job my life is empty except for exercise drugs and alcohol so I know I have to have a job because I have nothing to live for and nothing to do but I just don't see how its possible to get through life all the way to dying of old age unless you can smoke weed
Yep. Like a roommate I had in rehab would always say “life sucks.” He was an Israeli Soldier who moved to the US, and couldn’t stop drinking. Everyday he’d wake up and say how much life sucked. He knew it sucked and it wasn’t gonna change. But he made the choice to get clean anyway, because it was worse living as a drunk I guess. I met him in a program in another state. It’s a week or 2 detox, and then there are men’s houses and women’s houses. You stay as long as you need to. Some guys were there for 6 months when I got there. Have you tried something like that?
Oh yea life sucks way more if youre drinking. At least good ol honest depression doesnt make me feel sick or give me a headache. I have been looking into sober living and all that in the area. Its actually pretty expensive 😓 i have my horrifying 3 hour long interrogation / job interview tomorrow morning and once thats over ill be able to think straight and hopefully find a place to live 😖