Today I hand in my paperwork for treatment. I really don’t want to go, Even if it’s just to give them my application. I have no energy or want to go outside. But I guess I have to, I need the help :(

People that drink so they don't have to feel the pain of living so often don't know the difference between pain & living. If you are drinking because it makes you feel better but you feel poorly when sober so you drink to feel better again. You are feeling bad because you are lack of alcohol in your system. So you take a drink & you start to feel better so you lake another drink. Pretty soon you have fooled yourself into thinking the alcohol made you feel better. There is a solution to feeling better & it's not alcohol. What you need is sobriety to make you feel better. You need someone to talk to about the pain. You need help to not use alcohol as an excuse to drink. Alcoholism is a disease that there is no cure for. You can't catch The disease from the local pub or a bottle of booze. It is more likely you were born with it. It can be past from one generation to the next. It might not be from a l parent but from another member of your family. Your parents may not be alcoholics but they carried The gene. The only way to treat it is not to take that first drink. AA is full of people that are feeling the same things as you are. All they want from you is to not drink. I am Jeff & I am an alcoholic.

I’m struggling , after almost a year of being Stone cold sober I relapsed during the pandemic , it’s as under control as it can be and I have no interest in going out etc but I’m drinking way too much and I can’t stop

Well Sam if you really can't stop drinking you are going to drink yourself to death it's hard to do but I came close two time. I drank myself into a coma twice. The second time the ER Doc told my wife I probably die. Then the hospital Doc told her I would probably have wet brain. That's where your brain get stuck on drunk. You may be sober but your thinks it's drunk. She finally got my Doctor to the hospital & do a exam on me. Now mind you i was still in a coma. When I woke up my doctor & my wife were standing over me with a court order that I spend 90 day in a treatment facility & 90 days in AA. 90 meetings in 90 days. My wife told me if don't do what the court order said not to bother coming home. All my belongings would be out on the front lawn. So I did my 180 days & she left me anyway. I learned a lot in treatment. I was drinking myself to death & distroying my self before I got there. Once I started to see what I was doing to myself I knew I had to do something. That's what you are doing to your self. It won't be long & you will drink yourself into a coma or worse. You need to take your time & think about that. I've been sober 37 yrs after that episode. The drink that put me into a coma was my last drink. Every time I think about taking that first drink I remember my hospital stay & treatment. I don't ever want to that again. Oh I'm tempted sometimes. Especially during the Summers here in southern Arizona. It get to 110 degrees here & I think about what an ice cold beer would taste like. Then I go inside to the A/C. I hope I gave you something to think about. Stay in touch & use me when you need me My name is Jeff & I'm an alcoholic.

“Owning your story is the bravest thing you’ll ever do.” – Brené Brown

Greetings✨! I just joined this community - don’t be a stranger!

There is nothing better as a fresh and energized morning after peaceful sober night. This is what I want and need. And this is what’s going to happen from now on

I been drinking on the weekends

I meant to saaay & it maaake me feeel goood like it used to

Quit working I mean I know that’s a good thing but I never thought I would reach this level I’m like holy fuck what the fuck no way but it’s really real but I smoke weed and I love it and I’m so happy and that’s all I smoke and I’m very happy and satisfied and there’s nothing better not booze no pills no PCP well I’ll do like morphine but you know we all know where that is too ha ha ha

I'm ashamed because I drink and I drink because I'm ashamed. I dont see a reason to keep going. Life has not been enjoyable for me at any time in my memory. Ive been completely miserable since i was 5 years old. The last 30 years sucked and I'm not looking forward to the next 30. I have no idea what I'm going to do.

I'm going to stop drinking starting today. I'm sick and tired of torturing myself and feeling guilty all the time and afraid. The shame is just too painful. I still have 10 hours left at work BUT you cant buy alcohol til 1200pm on sunday so I know I'll make it home and go to sleep without drinking. I'm so sorry to everyone on this app that i was obnoxious with or if anyone was upset by any of my messages. I swear I will really try hard this time

Anyone who wants to quit drinking pls DM me

It’s too much to handle. Please DM me anyone who wants to quit drinking.

Anyone? Please anyone who’s dependent on alcohol and just wants to quit drinking.

Jeff are you there? Really need motivation. Please anyone who wants to quit drinking or has successfully come out of it. Please DM me

I relapsed already. Stayed sober today. I only have 2 more days and then I'll be back at work and that will keep me busy and unable to drink. Sad mad and disappointed in myself.

Hello, I've just recently come to realize that I have an alcohol addiction. I knew in the past I was addicted to various drugs not was in denial of this. I just got out of behavioral health inpatient. It didn't even occur to me that I'd go through withdrawals there. Less than two days later, I was absolutely miserable physically. They put me on medication to help with the symptoms. I'm sober as of 9 June 2022. I'm anxious right now due to going to a PHP and knowing they might not accept me. I'm also sad and overwhelmed with the loss of my daughter. I have yet to go to a meeting but I will soon. I'm just trying to process all of this.

I messed up this week, but today is a new day and tomorrow I'm going to the gym before work then I have 4 days off to get things done. I have a good feeling this time I think I know what to do. I'm still in a stressful living environment but I can avoid my dad and go out more on my days off and it will help alot. Wish me luck and maybe soon I can move out and rent a cheap room

Hi Anna, I'm Jeff. If ever you need some help with alcohol addiction I am happy to help. I to am an alcoholic and it toke me awhile to wise up and admit I had a problem. I was fooling myself telling myself I'm not that bad. But I knew for a long time I had a problem with alcohol. What finely did it for me was I drank myself into a coma for a second time. My then wife got scared when she couldn't wake me and she called the sheriff. He then called for an ambulance even before he got to the house. The ambulance took me to the ER. The doctor told my wife I probably going to die. I was admitted to the hospital still in a coma the staff doctor told her I would live but I probably have wet brain. That's when you can be sober but your brain is stuck on drunk. I was in that coma for 3 days. My wife had called my regular doctor and when I woke up my wife and my doctor showed me a court order that I check into a treatment facility for 90 days and after that I go to AA for 90 days. 90 meetings in 90 days. My wife told me if I don't follow what the court order said don't bother coming home my things would be on the front lawn. So I did my 180 days she left me anyway. That was 37 yrs ago. My last drink put me in that coma. I struggled for many yrs not to take that first drink and I made it out of that nightmare. I still think about it sometimes but now it's just a passing thought. AA was a god send for me. I don't know if I would have made it without them. I say them because it was the people at AA that wouldn't let me fail. I think I had 3 or 4 sponsors and they helped me in so many ways. I'll never forget what they did for me. I made god and myself a promise that I would help anyone who needed it for as long as they needed my help. Wisdo is helping me keep that promise. So if you need anything that I can help you with don't hesitate to ask. My name is Jeff and I'm an alcoholic.

I relapsed. Last night I actually attacked my friend. I feel terrible and embarrassed. I wish I didn’t depend on it so much. I’m starting to fight or I try to when I drink. I stopped going to groups. I guess the only good thing is I go to treatment on the 6th. I just don’t have a ride to get there lol… life kind of sucks right now.

Hi everybody. Great to meet you all 🙌

I’m drinking already on mountain time. I have the most important career move and job start on Wed. I’m really struggling. I’m scared I can’t do the job (I have imposter syndrome) and I’m just f scared. I’m getting in my head. I have experience in this industry but it’s a $40k salary increase and im terrified iof getting fired already

Hi Sarah I'm Jeff. I know what it is like to be drinking on mountain time. I grew up on mountain time. I'm still on mountain time I just don't live in the time I grew up on.i know what it's like to be scared. At one time I was afraid to get up in the morning.i knew what my day was going to be. I kept a bottle beside my bed so I could take a drink in the middle of the night. Before you don't want to hear it that I'm different then you let me tell you my story. I was a fall down drunk. I drank my way through my 1st marrage and was working on my 2nd. I knew I had a problem with alcohol I just didn't know what to do about it. It all came to an end real fast. I had drank myself into a coma twice. The second time my wife got scared when she couldn't wake me. She called the sheriff and he called the ambulance before he even got to my house. The ambulance took me to the ER. My wife followed it. The ER doc told my wife I would likely die. He had me admited still in a coma. The resident doc told her I would probably live but I might have wet brain. Wet brain is you can be completely sober but your brain is stuck on drunk. My wife got a hold of my regular doctor and told him what was happening. He knew me very well and had tried to get me to quit drinking several times. I was in that coma for 3 days and when I woke up they where both standing over me. They showed me a court order to admit myself into a treatment facility for 90 days. Then I go to AA another 90 days. 90 meetings in 90 days. My wife told me if I don't follow what the court order said don't bother coming home . she would put all of my stuff out on the front lawn. So I did my 180 days and in the end she left me anyway. That was 38 yrs ago. My last drink put me in that coma. I haven't had a drink since. You might say oh that will never happen to me. I said the same thing many times and it happened to me anyway. The past 38 yrs are the best I've ever had. I live in southern Arizona now and on those 100+ degree days in the summer I find myself wondering what an ice cold beer would taste like. Then I had to settle for A/C instead. I'm not saying that's what will happen to you but do you want to take the chance. You have already taken the 1st step. Admited you have an alcohol problem. Now the next step is that you do something about it. When I finished my 180 days I made a promise to god and to my self that I would help as many people as I could no matter what I had to do or how long I was needed. There were a lot of people at AA that wouldn't let me fail myself and they were willing to do what ever they had to do to keep me sober. It wasn't always easy. Some times I almost failed myself. If there is anything you need from me you just ask me. I have to warn you though I can be a real pain in the ass if things don't go my way. I pray I'll hear from you and you and I have many talks.

So I’m drinking again 🤦🏻‍♂️

Hi all, wanted to let you know that there’s a new resource in the U.S. Just like 911 for criminal matters.. dialing 988 will be known as the national suicide hotline. When will it be accessible? On Saturday 7/16 the “988” number will be going live. This is the suicide hotline. 💜📞

I'm going to try really hard to make it all weekend with no alcohol. I work weekends so that will make it easier. Also its 12 hour shifts so after driving I will barely have 10 hours at home before I have to come back here so that will help too. I tried to moderate - failed.

Everyone, I have finally decided to quit drinking. I have tried a few times, and anytime I don’t drink I cannot sleep. Does anyone else deal with sever insomnia? I have trouble sleeping when I drink, but if I don’t I do not sleep at all. How long after stopping did you finally start getting back to normal sleep?

I'm coming down. Got the shakes n sweats. At work for another 9 hours. Forgot my prozac this morning. My life is beyond unmanageable. I feel nothing but shame and self hatred and regret and fear. I honestly hate myself and always have and probably always will. I'm a waste of space

Only 4 hours left. And thank God because I'm really starting to feel the lack of prozac in my system. Very anxious. I'm terrified to just live my life its like there's a potential mistake around every corner and I have so many mistakes piling up. I can't handle life and responsibilities. Losing hope. My future doesn't look too good. I hate that i get good opporunities and screw them up. I'm ashamed because I drink and I drink because I'm ashamed. My mind is like a prison.

I'm kinda numb kinda sad. But I stayed sober today. And I will tomorrow too. I need to stop torturing myself with this. And I'm finally going to a couple aa meetings this week

If its already been almost 2 days from my last drink and I feel fine then do I still need to worry about withdrawals / stopping cold turkey? All the sweats and shakes are gone at this point. I would rather not buy anymore if I can avoid it

I was supposed to moderate the next 3 days so I wouldnt have withdrawals but I ended up drinking the whole 12 pack in 24 hours goddamnit I have no choice but to go cold turkey I'm scared but I have an AA meeting tomorrow night and I'm just going to stop cold and not taper and deal with the consequences.

Well i managed to sleep a bit...and I have stuff to do today. Still feeling kind of emotional and sad but I keep reminding myself I didn't do anything wrong I just made a mistake. I can always start over and try again.

I have been cutting back the drinking and went to my first AA meeting in a long time yesterday. I am going back Tuesday. It was scary honestly...thats the part of AA I dont like...hearing people talk about their destroyed lives terrifies me because I convince myself that the same thing will happen to me and there's nothing I can do about it. I'm still scared now.

So…don’t know exactly where to post this, but will post on other forms…Anyways, I’ve been stressed out which has led back into my “alcoholism”…Like, I (believe because as a kid I was diagnosed with ADHD) believe I have ADHD, so that could play a factor, but I don’t know…wish there was a number I could call just to vent to someone about everyday stress…any help would be appreciated…thank you in advance? Lol

Hello

Feeling my alcohol is getting worse for me recently, I go to my gambling meetings drunk and feel shit and tired barely able to function. It's going to be hard for me to withdraw as there is no rehab facilities close to me.

Today is two weeks not drinking but lately it’s been a hard time and I just really want a drink

One month sober :)

Needing someone to talk to I have Noone

Anybody struggling with gambling issues??

Since the start of 2020 I’ve been dealing with severe depression and have resorted to alcoholism. It started because this girl I met on a dating app. We hung out one day and I left to go to work. Later that day found out she went out with another dude. I’ve been drinking ever since and have no way out. I’ve been trying to get my life together but find every excuse to drink. Counseling/therapy I’ve found doesn’t help. I have no motivation to get out of bed and say to myself I need to change.

Hi I'm new here and I feel comfortable with the community to share this here I only drink to forget my pain and to lose attention of the ones around me that I can't stand

Steps to help quit drinking would be helpful right now.

Hey everyone I've joined a few of the different communities on here and I have just joined this one today because for all I feel better in other areas I feel absolutely gutted that I broke my sobriety the other night. I'd been sober 3 months then something bad happened in my life and I couldn't stop myself. I got drunk and bottom line is I completely regret it. I was on such a roll can't believe I shot myself straight back to square one.

HELP. What did you do to quit drinking? I desperately need to stop. Please message me if you have any advice or even want to just help hold me accountable. 😞

Alcohol addition is hard for many people, I've been abusing it for years my parents were alcoholics I might be the same just now.

It’s so hard for me to quit, I take breaks every year for a month and fall right back on it. I justify my drinking by calling myself high functioning. I still go to work, cook, spend time with the family, etc… I’m sober for about 2 weeks. I have a very addictive mindset and usually replace it with something else. On the weekends I’ll wake up at 5 am and start drinking whiskey. I’m afraid after a month I’ll convince myself that nothing has changed and quitting didn’t help anything and start again. I just really enjoy it.