I'm 25 years old, I have two degrees. I've conquered law school at one of Africa's best university maintaining an A average throughout. I did this whilst battling anxiety, my dad's death, being assaulted, being hospitalized, dealing with depression. Im not writing this to boast but I am becoz I feel like I don't have goals beyond this. I didn't have goals to achieve this and sometimes it feels like dumb luck. I hate myself. I cannot stand myself and I doubt everything abiut myself and my abilities. But my record shows otherwise. How do I move forward. How do I set goals. How do I achieve them. I'm a wreck at the moment
Azy, I relate many of life situations to the video games that I play... Whenever I finish a level quicker and was easy i don't feel that game was worthy one. I have to find another game or I have replay again to see if it just luck. I think you were able to handle things so easily that you are feeling the aim wasn't matching to your capabilities. If you hadn't done what you told then you wouldn't be feeling the same way about you. So, it's the after effect of completing the goal. Give yourself something new to achieve.
Love the video game analogy. It makes total sense
First of all- congrats on everything you have achieved. You’ve climbed a mountain and it’s time you turned around and look how far you’ve come. Enjoy the view. Secondly, it seems like you’re after a new challenge, so think about what would make you complete and happy and go for that. It may be that you just need to chug along for a bit, content with what you’ve already achieved, or maybe you’re ready to power on through to your next goal. Finally, find a way to start believing in yourself again. What you’ve been through has been daunting, but you have got through it because of the special qualities that make you you.
Hi Azy, congratulations on all your achievements. I think, what you are dealing is the lack of purpose. When you were dealing with all the difficult and challenging circumstances, you were driven to arrive on the other side. Now you are on the other side, you did it !!!! What now? It feels like a vacuum, an empty space. We humans don't do well with emptiness. This is a bit difficult phase and at the same time, it can be absolutely wonderful. Now you have a chance to decide what stays and what goes in your life. You can reinvent yourself. Here is an opportunity to recreate your life with completely new vision which can be free from your past. You can create Azy 2.0!
Everything will be OK