The pain that I experience everyday from the moment I wake up is something i know not many would be able to handle. I honestly don't know how I've done it for as long as I have but look forward soon to when it finally ends. It's funny to me because as much as I want the pain to end I don't know how I would live in a world without it. It's almost as if I've come to enjoy it and thrive on it in a weird way. It's like i want it to end but at the same time I don't. The daily battle I struggle with internally but know one way or another something is going to happen no matter what. I can't even begin to contemplate a world without it for me. Just wanted to say that out loud to myself to be honest. I'm going to be up for a bit so if anyone wants or needs to talk, feel free to reach out. Hoping everyone is doing way better with their situations out there than I am with mine 🙏😑
Hey everyone.. I have been put on forced unpaid leave due to corona for next two weeks.. feel free to message me if u need to talk about something. Thanks..
I’m not entirely sure if it’s the medication I’m taking or what, but today I’ve was able to happily say that I have officially moved on from my ex and I feel this relief lifted off my shoulders, I hope and pray for those that are still dealing with their exes that they find happiness and peace
my ex saying she’s happy hurts but that’s all I wanted so I’m finally going to try to accept and let go. I want the best for her and if the person she’s with makes her happy then I’m ok I wish nothing but the best.
Hey everyone, So, I need some help and or advice. To give you a little bit of an origin story, I met this girl 3 months ago on Facebook Dating. Well, we get to talking and she tells me that she has a 6 year old daughter and is separated from and in the process of divorcing her husband, but still lives with him. I told her about my DUI and that I’m unemployed and living with my parents because I moved back to my home state right before the pandemic hit. We were completely understanding about each other’s situation and decided to wait until both of our situations improved before physically meeting each other. Now overtime realizing how incredibly fantastic she is, we developed a relationship, and that’s when my insecurities start to set in that are caused from past failed relationships. So randomly I would joke about her cheating on me with some other guy and only caused an uproar once or twice before the damaging situation occurred. So now for the backstory factors, she’s a lab tech at a hospital, so she knows a fair amount of medical stuff…I, on the other hand, am as dumb as a doorknob when it comes to things of that nature. Well, she’s been dealing with A LOT these last few weeks with working overtime, trying to find a place so she can move out and away from her ex-husband, having a migraine for the past week, and her best friend’s medical issues. So yesterday, we barely talked and like an insecure child, I checked her Facebook. Turns out, she was sharing posts, instead of talking to me. Except, she did tell me that she was going to try and get some sleep before her kid wakes up because she has to watch her. That’s when I just blew my lid and said “Oh I see how it is, you’d rather talk to your other (f-word)ing dudes than me” and that caused an entire issue. Well later on, she told me that she has to process wether her feelings for me are worth keeping me around because she’s been through the whole constantly getting accused of cheating from her first marriage and that the migraine is what’s keeping her from communicating with me because she’s sensitive to blue light. So my question is, how do I prove to her that being with me is the right decision, that I truly am sorry, that she has all my trust, and that this will never become an issue again? Thanks in advance!
Hey guys, just hear for venting i guess. My ex thats been staying with me told me to pack his things because his name is starting to be associated with the address we stay at... we not together & we’re not trying to be. He moved on completely while he was staying with me. I haven’t moved on at all but i know now that what i had wasn’t love. I was in love but unhealthily & toxic. Im crying as im gathering everything. Idk why maybe because i actually have to face this alone now he was here for almost a year. And now hes never coming back to me. When we are in the house together i get too comfortable thinking we are friends and can be cordial but he doesnt even like me. Everything i say its annoying and im speaking bs. He hates me now. I wish out off all if this these years and these problems i wouldve still had a friend, that same boy i met in the park years ago.
I grew up poor and I’m the type to not want anything materialistic I rather have nothing and be happy than have all these possessions and not have emotional happiness.My parents we migrants and both of them struggled but they provided for me,I was told to always be happy and work hard at whatever you desire in life and just be happy even if you fail at trying just get back up and try again.That’s what I’ve done all my life and I am complacent where I’m at now.I live a quiet and peaceful life and even though I’m not fully where I want to be I know I have to keep pushing forward to get to my dreams and goals even though there maybe obstacles ahead of me I have to brush the dirt off my shoulders and keep fighting until I’m there.A lot of us tend to give up because we are tired and feel like we can’t go on any further and believe me there are times when I feel like saying f it and give up but I don’t I know one day I’m going to be happy and find my inner peace I know it’s out there somewhere but it takes time and I’m going to be patient and learn to love myself more who cares what anyone thinks of me if they aren’t there to support me or encourage me they don’t belong in my life all I need is positive people and vibes I need someone that will tell me quit crying you will be fine just be patient and all will work out when you feel down when you doubt yourself just know you are special and unique and one day you will be happy again keep fighting keep pushing forward keep your head up wipe your tears smile more believe in yourself more ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
i need advice so this guy who went back & forth with me years ago apologised to me this past january & wanted me to know that he changed so i believed him because his apology seemed very real & wasn’t just a plain “i’m sorry” if you get what i’m saying. so anyways my bday was in the beginning of february so he took me out for a drink which was nice then we kept talking for about a week then all of a sudden he stopped talking to me. weeks pass then in march he talks to me again & told me the reason why he was mia is because his grandma had covid so he was scared about it, so we talk again. then at the end of march, he took me out which again was nice. about a monthish later (late april), he stopped talking to me again for a bit cause he got in a car accident which was 100% real. he had to take time for himself which makes sense after getting in an accident. so i made him take his time then a few weeks later (middle of may) he was talking to me again. two weeks ago he came over my house for dinner which was nice but i also had anxiety when he was over & he knows i get anxiety so it didn’t bother him. i was nervous cause i wanted everything to be perfect (cause that’s just how i am) & also i was afraid my family was gonna intrude my dinner but like i said he didn’t mind that i was in a funk, he even said so. when he left i made a joke saying “oh are you gonna see me in a few months again?” we both laughed & he promised me that he would see me again soon. last week he started acting distant again, it seems like it’s like that around every time he sees me. he tells me he has mental health problems which i get because i have it too. so when his mental health gets bad he’s very distant towards people which is valid cause i know people who are like that but…it always seems to happen about a week after he sees me?? do you think he’s using it as an excuse & is seeing other people or it’s just a coincidence that it happens those times (excluding the car accident that was actually bad). should i talk to him about it or just wait for him to come back??
“How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard….” A.A.Milne Winnie the Pooh
I am not doing great...me and my ex broke up 3 weeks ago, since then shes religiously tried contacting me as if we can carry on as normal. She tried facetiming me on monday, i ignored it which led to an argument via text...a few days later, she txt me again and i ignored it and my friend who knows the situation made her delete my number.. im just fuming, can't she comprehend i don't want contact with her right now after she broke my heart
Is blocking someone you used to talk to (and like) immature? I was considering doing it, as things did not work out, but I don’t want to seem very petty and immature by doing so. I’d just be doing it to avoid seeing their page and posts. I wouldn’t be doing it to be nasty or childish; it’s more so to just avoid any further upset by seeing their posts. Sorry if it seems like a stupid question, and I know the answer is subjective really, but I just wanted some type of reassurance because I don’t want to seem nasty or like I’m being funny.
I cant sleep anyone wanna keep me company?
I told my ex the truth everyones talking about it it might as well come from me. I love him he hates me. He’ll never be with me again because i did something when we wasn’t together. I get it i just need to be honest because this lying shit isn’t me. I don’t want to be looked at like I’m for everyone opening my legs to anyone. I did that something out of hurt. He had gotten another girl pregnant. Starting a new life with someone i was so broken. Its not an excuse but I’m being honest thats where it stemmed from. It was one time It took me months to tell him the truth. I just dont want to lose him friend or not. I gave everything to this man. Idk what to do now i wanna kill myself i dont wanna be here idk what to do advice please.
What kind of person tells you they love you, can’t live without you, wants to be with you someday and is with someone else and is suicidal because of it, then tells others you are stalking and harassing them to the point where you get bullied off line? Then that person expects you to have a civil conversation with them two years later
How do I get outta here exhausted with all
Hey, I'm new here but somewhat careful about opening up. DM me if you can offer me some advice?
I’ve been in a toxic relationship for so long I couldn’t open my eyes, I think I was scared to or kept telling myself it could be a misunderstanding or paranoia. I wish I left earlier when I was strong enough but well at least I left when I could.
I was in a really bad relationship with my ex who would beat me, one time she bashed my head which required stitches she was so afraid that I might get her arrested for it I told her no because you have a daughter by me so I put my child before her.She would swear up and down that I was always cheating on her but other than going to work I was always with her she’d constantly would Call me at work and they would have to tell her to stop calling me and one time she thought I was sleeping w her step mom that she would smell me to see if I had a woman’s smell on me that’s why I refuse to be w anyone ever again
My mom’s anniversary of her death came and went and it still hurts even though she died some years ago,what’s special about our bond was the way our union came into place.My momma was an immigrant and met my dad and they got married 2 weeks after they met and were married 33 years before my dad died,what’s special about this whole thing was my mom was 46 and dad was about 54 about a year later I was born😍 , imagine being a 47 year old woman about 5 feet tall weighing around 125 and having a child that was born 8 pounds that there made it special but what was more sad was we had no family and it was just us three granted there were a few family members here and there but I was their only family and I took care of them until they were both well into their 80’s now when I lost momma it broke me I cry every night for her I talk to her just to let her know how much I love her and dad and how much I miss her it’s hard I’m so sad I’m so broken
Asking where's my heart good luck finding tht we split long time ago 🤣
My boyfriend & i make 3 years in 2 weeks but we been bumping heads more than ever & it really sucks. We are just becoming different people but i can still see the potential but if im being honest im not happy, but i also love him very much so im super torn..
For some women its so easy for them to lie and sneak have multiple men. Not me. Like what inner power I’m missing lmfao. Thats just not my body. Has never been. I love being with one person building a monogamous relationship. I was 14 15 got into a 3 year relationship and hopped into a 5 year right after now im no good for anyone atm not even myself ☹️
How do you let go of some1 who broke you beyond repair? As much as you love them, all you feel is resentment and hate. Its poison inside me. I want answers from them ill never get. I want revenge ill never get. I want the pain, thoughts and bad dreams to stop. How can some1 be so evil?
Anyone else sick of being let down and feeling low????
I’m going to knock myself for not seizing my chance at meeting this girl because the signs were there and because I was shy and a respectful guy I didn’t want to seem pushy.One day I got on a city bus and at the next stop this girl gets in and immediately locks eyes with me and starts smiling at me,at first I thought me?So I would look away and not directly at her just to see if it was just my imagination as the song says running away with me but as soon as I would look back there she was looking and smiling at me wide,we both got off at the last stop and my gut told me go and introduce yourself just say hi good morning etc but I didn’t months went by and we were doing the same thing just smiling at one another and never had anything other than exchanging smilies until one day there she was inside my buildings lobby so I told her good morning and that was the last time I saw her,what’s crazy is this was over 20 years ago and I had a dream and before I went to bed I asked who’s my destiny and who do I see when I close my eyes her I just was shocked since I haven’t thought about her in decades ain’t that something that’s so crazy to think there was this big chance and I missed it why?I ask myself why didn’t I introduce myself
As a man I’m not perfect I have my flaws I don’t really have an relationship experience since I started off late on the dating scene I’m not a drinker so I don’t believe in going to any club or bar to meet anyone and I’m a homebody and all I do is work and come home but I also do online chatting to see if I can find someone with the same qualities as me and common interests and goals.I keep it real and show the person what type of character I poses and what I have to offer in a relationship.I always explain that I rather find a friend first so we can start off slow then gradually get to know one another before making any full commitment.The reason is my last relationship was horrible because we were always fighting and didn’t get along and we were like oil and water.I tried to tell my ex that I don’t like arguing and I would rather just cool down and come back later and talk things out so we can see what problems we have that needs fixing.But all she wanted to do was hit me,even though I’d walk away she’d follow me and hit me some more and that’s why I need to find someone that’s my best friend first before anything.A lot of people have told me I’m looking for a serious relationship and I get that we all do but if you don’t get to know the person first how are you going to jump into a relationship?Right now I want a forever partner I want someone that when I’m down they are there for me and vice versa that if we have any issues we talk things out.I don’t want anyone else but them they satisfy me both emotionally first then physically it’s hard to get but I’m trying I just don’t want to end up in a loveless relationship again
Something told me to come on here instead of the app I originally was going to go on. If anyone wants to chat for a bit or needs someone to talk to I'll be on 🤙
After i told him the truth after months of me lying and procrastinating on the situation he hates me he really hates me he wants nothing to so with me all i do is cry wtf. I forgave him for so much shit he did im begging him for forgiveness. But honestly i understand why he doesnt want me or wants to deal with me. I shouldve been said sonethibg instead of doinf the run around but i was scared.
So my husband just told me he filed for divorce. He was not patient in my healing process from his infidelity. He said he could not deal with the roller coaster of emotion. All I wanted and needed was patience and love. I feel this pain in my heart that won't go away. I feel so dead inside. I'm hopeless