I can’t focus to enjoy projects. I just sit there as my demons take over some times. The static is so maddening but I’m so used to it. I don’t want it to be the norm for me. I don’t want to get used to it. I wish I could focus and have a brtter memory in order for me to start new projects so I can be happy.
Haldol and Paxil saved my life. Without Haldol, I become delusional and cannot sleep and do work. Without Paxil, I get very negative view of everything. Thanks to medical advancement, they aren’t that expensive. I carry some in my bag. I usually store them in the refrigerator.
Thinking I’m hearing real voices outside, already can’t sleep. 😐
I haven’t been diagnosed with bpd but everyday I am struggling mentally. Some days I am Okay and I can go throughout the day without a negative thought or getting extremely angry or in my head about something.. and that’s when I’m around one sibling at a time.. but when I am around them all at once.. I have random splurges of negative thoughts about them and their energy towards me and it angers me to the point where I am super calm.. but the thoughts that rushes through my head are scary.. I hear thoughts telling me something far more extreme than what it actually may be.. I don’t feel like I am genuinely safe and I feel like every word that is said is intended towards me and meant to hurt me. I try to play it cool Nd be normal Like I was not offended by my mom telling me to cancel an order bc she didn’t want the gift I got her.. but deep down I wanted to go berserk... I felt like my dad was ambushing me with a crunch water bottle in my face although I just stood there while he was talking in my face in my bubble.. I actually felt like I was going to be attacked and I wanted to kill him... literally but I just stood there and froze as if I paused time.. or my sister stating that a guy who was brutally beaten and traumatized by his bully in which ruined his life should get over it bc it’s been 25 years but yet the bully still Torments him pissed me off to the point my blood was boiling bc I felt like it was a hint being thrown at me about getting over something that drastically changed my life years ago.. and my dad agreeing with her made me want to blow shit up.. but I stayed quiet and continued to watch the movie without engaging in their convo..
I also confessed to my therapist at the time that I get so angry that I could harm them.. and I feel like my therapist reported it but maybe not because I feel like I would have been admitted by now and my parents wouldn’t have let me move bck into the house with them if they felt like they were in danger
My schizophrenia paranoia is getting worse. Geopolitical situation for Japan in Asia is worsening as Japan is finding hostility from Korea and increased assertion of territories by China. My delusional thought is slaughter of Japanese citizens in future or total subjection by force. I doubled haldol today but still feeling agitated. I hope my fear goes away since the political situation is outside of my control. I try not to watch news, but it creeps when I use Internet.
Do you keep medication in the freezer section of the refrigerator? Some say it may decompose the effect of the medication. But I have been doing it and used the medication that has been in the freezer for an year. The medication is still working. Before the medical system collapses either by disaster or military occupation or whatever, I will try storing a few years amount of medication in the freezer. Because without medication I don’t know if I can remain alive. Haldol is a must.
Does you’re paranoid schizophrenia feels like sometimes it gets so uncontrollable in intense moments
Does anyone else feel constantly watched in their home? I have only been diagnosed with PTSD but I think I may have schizophrenia too. I feel like I am being watched by spirits. I know in my head that it is or not real but I can’t shake the feeling off for some reason. It’s very annoying. I used to take meds and they helped but I gained a Lot of weight and was always half asleep so I stopped them. I know going back on them might help but I feel like if I know it’s not real why cant I just shake the feeling off
*it is not real
Surrounded by so many people yet I feel alone. Mental health can really trap you inside yourself.
Hi, I struggle with bipolar and bpd and I am very passionate about mental health and the stigma that surrounds it. Schizophrenia is super fascinating to me. It’s the one mental illness that I wish I knew more about. If anyone would like to private message me and tell me about what you go through. I would love to hear your story as long as it isn’t triggering❤️
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The voices get so loud when my anxiety acts up
Hi everyone, I'm new to the group. I have schizophrenia and I've been stable on resperidone for 2 years without symptoms. I have become very good at telling when I'm thinking rationally, and when I'm having hallucinations or dellusions. If any of you are currently stuggling with schizophrenia, I may be able to help. The best advice I can give is to stay as firmly attached to reality as possible. This means surrounding yourself with people who think rationally and asking for their opinions on your thoughts. This means journaling your thoughts and asking someone else to go over it. This means recognizing patterns in our hallucinations so you can tell them apart from reality. For me I usually hear the voices of two or three women in discussion about my life (by discussion I mean insulting me and lying to me). If I hear that, I know I'm hallucinating. I have no visual hallucinations but my auditory hallucinations are absolutely overpowering without medication to the point where I'm bedridden. The hallucinations may have you feeling stockholm syndrome without them. If you feel special or intrigued by them, I cannot stress enough how dangerous they are and how much happier you will eventually be without them. You are special, but not because you are sick. I gained 50 lbs on risperidone and I used to be extremely fit. I would do it again in a heartbeat. I hope this has been helpful.
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Hey everyone! With my schizoaffective disorder I usually just pretend nothing is wrong. I just ended a relationship and my bf for a year and a half knew I had something wrong but I couldn’t tell him what. Like I couldn’t say it out loud. My biggest issue is my ocd thoughts that drive me crazy, but I’ve done therapy and it’s helping. Still, I feel so stigmatized by this illness and I would be mortified if anyone knew I had it. Does anyone have advice about these feelings? It’s nice to get on here, I feel like some people understand me. ❤️ thank you all for your posts! 😃
So, I don’t have schizophrenia, but my mom and grandpa do. I find it really difficult for me to relate to my mom like I used to when I was a lot younger, before she ever had symptoms. For about 5 years or so, she had back-to-back relapses and was in and out of hospitals, so I kinda learned to not be too attached to her in case she’d have to leave again. She’s been relapse-free for a few years now and we generally have a good relationship, but I can sense that I’m still putting up a wall and have done that with others as well. It doesn’t help that she hadn’t ever fully understood what was happening due to anosognosia, so I can’t really speak to her about those 5 years. I know it’s wrong to keep emotional distance from her and others in my life, but I don’t really know how to change it now.
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Hello everyone. I am reaching out because I need advice. My boyfriend is experiencing hallucinations. He is convinced that someone put something in his brain through his ear and he tells me hears different people talking, more specifically, he hears people talking crap to him and taunting him. I have tried everything to get him to see a psychiatrist. He did, but then didn't believe what the psychiatrist said. He gets angry with me and ask me why I'm trying to convince him it's something else, when he "knows" someone but a device in his head.... I've been patient, I've shown him facts, I've researched, etc... He refuses to get the help he needs bc in his reality it's not a "mental" issue. -- please someone give me advice I don't know what else to do. 😭