I need to vent something out before I do something stupid. I’m going crazy in my head because my mother is bringing a man (he husband who she’s been separated from for 7 1/2 years) around that called me work and threatened to kill and rape me. This happened about 3 1/2 years ago. All of a sudden she wants to get back together with his because she “loves” him. This man beat my mother would bite he face, pushed her down the stairs while pregnant and sat on her stomach also while pregnant. I just moved back in with my mom to save money and go back to school and that obviously not happening. I asked my mom that if I’m home I not be around him and to go to the basement so I can make food and go back up stairs or go outside until I’m done which wouldn’t be long maybe like 15 minutes (the time it’s normally takes them to smoke) I told my mom that I don’t approve of this at all. I don’t feel safe around him or comfortable. I’m constantly scared especially at night when I go to bed. I’ve been barricading my door and loosing the laches on my window incase I need an escape I’ll have time to jump out the window. My mother won’t agree or compromise with me it’s just what she wants. She now takes his side and is saying that he would never have done that, and I told her the police were even scared for my safety they took my mug shot incase I ended up in a ditch or if he mangled me to the point they wouldn’t recognize my face. The police made me move and asked if I would quit my job but I refused to quit because I love my job. So now I’m having to stay in my room because he’s down stairs and she would go outside or in the basement so I can make food. This morning I couldn’t even make a lunch for work because he was down there. So all day I’ve had a granola bar that I found in my purse and one of the girls at work gave my a water bottle. I don’t have enough for a deposit on an apartment and I’m stuck I’m constantly in a dark place and I’m just extremely exhausted and tired I can’t do it anymore I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. Lately I’ve thought more vividly about suicide. I have no idea what to do
If it’s effecting you’re mental health this much I feel your would be best to move. When they say to leave your job was that in planning to move to. Know one should feel scared in their own home.
I’m trying to move. I’ve been looking at places but it’s hard to come up with first and last months rent